boring no way.. but I must admit that I am scared to read it. *that's why it took me so long to read this chapter.* Every time before reading, I'm afraid of what will happen. I can say with some certainty that I am avoiding this fic like I'm avoiding people sometimes, when I feel they get to close, I tend to push them away. And when I'm afraid to ask something, or find something out, I'll try to prevent myself from it. THat's what happening with me and this fic, I find I'm scared to read, to know what will happen, in what way he's thinking, I'm scared of the fact that people may actually feel like this sometimes, it makes it so hard to not fantasize about people and what they're capable of, I tend to over think things a bit to much. Also I'm afraid to find things that may be very close to the truth for me. Sometimes I kind of remember things that I used to think last year. When looked in the mirror I would be wondering about the face that looked back. And Now with this fic everything just surfaces a little, that's why it's hard to read. But I'll read it. It may take me a while, but I'll read it.
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Date: 2012-07-11 03:25 pm (UTC)From:but I must admit that I am scared to read it.
*that's why it took me so long to read this chapter.*
Every time before reading, I'm afraid of what will happen.
I can say with some certainty that I am avoiding this fic like I'm avoiding people sometimes, when I feel they get to close, I tend to push them away. And when I'm afraid to ask something, or find something out, I'll try to prevent myself from it.
THat's what happening with me and this fic, I find I'm scared to read, to know what will happen, in what way he's thinking, I'm scared of the fact that people may actually feel like this sometimes, it makes it so hard to not fantasize about people and what they're capable of, I tend to over think things a bit to much.
Also I'm afraid to find things that may be very close to the truth for me.
Sometimes I kind of remember things that I used to think last year.
When looked in the mirror I would be wondering about the face that looked back.
And Now with this fic everything just surfaces a little, that's why it's hard to read.
But I'll read it. It may take me a while, but I'll read it.